Sometimes I wonder what I would do without my planner and to-do lists. They keep me on track and remind me of the many responsibilities I am tasked with. For those that know me, know how important my relationship with Christ is. I’m always looking for new ways I can grow closer to Him and strengthen my relationship with Him. But I think I hit the point where I let my good intentions weaken rather than strengthen our relationship. I looked at my to-do list and felt so overwhelmed. Overwhelmed to the point where in fear of not being able to complete something fully, perfectly, I just chose not to do anything. Here is what my list looked like:

• Finish reading the book of Isaiah
• Finish reading The Lipstick Gospel
• Do my Soul Script sessions
• Finish my Lent Study from She Reads Truth
• Finish Risen Christ Study from She Reads Truth
• Journal
• Listen to sermons

On top of that this was my list to start:

• IF Gathering- Knowing Jesus
• Write the Word
• Wholeheartedly
• Girl Defined
• Redeeming Love and Hosea study

Studies on the way:

•  IF Gathering- Redeemed

And my list to buy:

• The Devo Company devotional
• Rose and Thorns
• Cultivate What Matters
• She Reads Truth Bible
• Seamless
• An Unexplainable Life

Whoa. Are you exhausted yet? Because I am! When did my relationship with Christ become just a thing to check off of my to do list? I know it’s important to be intentional and make sure Christ stays number one in my life but do I really need to be reminded?

Finish, finish, finish. Do, do, do. When did those words replace my vocabulary of love, enjoy, renew? How would you feel if your significant other, an important relationship in your life, had to pencil you in? I’d feel like a burden and the last thing I would want God to feel like is some burden in my life. God is my life. It’s important to not let our quiet times with the Lord slip through the cracks with the worries and stresses of the day. But let’s not be so hard on ourselves that we forget to enjoy our one true love.

This past weekend I just wanted to enjoy Jesus. Spend time with Him. Love Him. Not something to check off my list because I’m some good Christian. But something to renew my faith, ignite my hope, and remind me of who I really am- daughter of the King, loved beyond comprehension, and blessed beyond measure.

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