I’m finally able to finish and wrap up my posts centered on abuse. For some reason I couldn’t finish but now I can. This one is hard to learn and navigate because I’m so independent. How do you know if someone is genuinely concerned for you or is just trying to control you?
Getting out of an abusive relationship can be difficult and dangerous. You sure you didn’t do something to make him mad? He looks so sad. Forgive and forget. When you love someone- you stay with them through the bad stuff and you know why they do what they do (their childhood, etc.) so you excuse their behavior. We forget it’s possible to forgive and still leave. We forget it’s possible to still love and say no more. You don’t allow yourself to keep being abused.
A simple internet search shows us signs of abuse. Does your boyfriend act in ways that scare you, does he act jealous or possessive, does he try to control you or need to know where you are at all times, does he check your email, phone messages, or texts? Does he tell you what to wear or make you change your clothes? Does he call you or text you excessively or insist that you answer his calls within a specific frame of time? Does he shove, hit, or kick you? Does he blame you for the hurtful things he says or does?
Concern for your well-being is good; control is not. Sometimes it can be very difficult to tell the difference because the difference may be in motives and not necessarily actions. Here’s 25 ways to try and help you navigate:
Concern wants to make your life better; control wants you to make their life better
Concern encourages your own identity; control gradually steals your identity
Concern wants you to pursue your dreams; control finds reasons for you to pursue theirs
Concern helps you to seek God for answers; control tells you they already have the answers
Concern wants you to be happy; control wants you to be only happy with them
Concern convicts; control condemns
Concern is protective; control is suspicious
Concern feels pain when he’s hurt you; control feels empowered
Concern feels bad for mistakes made; control tells you we all make mistakes
Concern guides you; control guilts you
Concern helps to bring out the real you; control suppresses the real you
Concern cares about your convictions; control cares only about theirs
Concern is open and direct; control is secretive and vague
Concern talks rationally; control talks in extremes
Concern protects; control threatens
Concern accepts responsibility for their actions; control excuses their behavior and twists it back to put the blame on you
Concern is humble and looks for ways to improve; control highlights their strengths
Concern cares about your desires and needs; control has to have their way
Concern makes you feel safe; control makes you look for ways out
Concern makes you feel free; control makes you feel in bondage
Concern brings clarity; control brings confusion
Concern leaves you with peace; control leaves you in denial
Concern is always honest; control lies if it’s in his best interest
Concern respects your boundaries; control looks for ways to invade them
Concern loves you, control wants you
Because some of these do have to do with motives and not actions, one of the best things on your side is time. Does he do what is right to avoid negative consequences, to maintain his image, or for admiration or is he motivated by Christ’s love? Don’t refuse to look at all angles of a person or take the time to observe their behavior objectively because you are afraid to face the truth. It’s easy to watch their behavior when everything is going great but what happens when you disagree? What are they like under pressure? If there is something they are hiding, there is something they haven’t dealt with yet. And if they haven’t had time to heal, they will attempt to go through the healing process at your expense. A person needs to be complete in Christ or they will end up abusing you in an attempt to find wholeness.
Honestly, at the end of the day, concern doesn’t even look like control. Not when you take the time to step back and look at it objectively, putting your emotions to the side. Concern will feel like love. A love that puts you before themselves. And control will not. So if you’re already questioning, you already know.
– the virgin heartbreaker
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